well....what could i expect?

it doesn't matter if i spill my heart and soul out to you
you want to erase it and hit fast forward
or ignore it completely
i felt your words paralyze me
i know you meant what you said
but i don't want to believe it
there is no one to believe in
nothing to stand up for
no one to confide in
nothing to look forward to
people are just people after all

Two Sad Poems

The Imminent Feeling is More Imminent

the feeling of defeat lingers in my bones
rejection after rejection
and i haven't started yet
there is only so many times you can hear
what is this going to do for you?


Well I'd rather....

apparently psilocybin is a better experience
than i am at this point in my life
is this worth it,
trying to pull you through the muck
when I am not sure what is on the other side


well they aren't really sad I guess, just real. I titled them, that's always nice.